linya 2

a: do you love me?

b: i don't know..

a: how come? is it that hard of a question?

b: no, but the answer would be..

a: commitment?

b: well, if i say 'i do', how would that make you feel?

a: i'd be happy!

b: that figures..

a: why? what's wrong with that answer..

b: i thought you'd feel loved...

a: ...

(awwwwwwwwwwwwww.)

and cut!

linya 1

a: i thought you'll reach out far in the heavens and give me my star

b: hindi ko maabot, masyado malayo e..

a: HMPH!

b: but you know, I don't need to go far to the heavens to give you what you deserve..

a: what..

b: because all you need is right in front of you, and my heart is always yours for the taking..

(awwwwwwwwwww!)

and CUT!

pas d' amour sans amour

People go to different lengths to find love, they risk everything hoping that the risk would be worth it.. but why go far when you know someone already loves you? why run away when all you need to do is to look behind you? that's the funny thing about love, thinking that it's all a chase. thinking that "she's out there" waiting. it's not stupid, just funny. we are always concerned by the reality of "not having" or "not getting" what we want; and living that kind of life is a sure pain in the ass. it's like looking for something that isn't there. we should always balance our fantasies with life's realities. it's not as if we have no control of what is happening. this is no movie where we have a destined end. we control our lives through our different decisions and choices. sometimes they're right, and sometimes they're wrong. we are no car crash waiting to happen. were just people, who live their separate lives the best way that he or she can.

when we love, it is no feeling or something magical. it is a choice we have to make. usually we don't make the right choice the first time, but that doesn't mean that love is meaningless. the choices we make are never our own. in some form or another, other people influence our own decisions. but when we are able to make our own decisons in life, and in love, just through what we see, feel and believe, it would be the best decision that we are making, no matter what others say. emotions are too fragile for others to handle. we don't need to wait for the right timing nor the stars to tell us when to act or when to love. we always have our chance, we just never take it.

pas d' amour sans amour - not love without love

whew

sometimes i wish to have a single day spent with you. even just brief moments makes all the troubles go away. maybe i'm just so tired right now that i would rather drop everything ang fall towards you. but nevertheless, i'am am also here, just waiting. i never have really caught up with anyone just yet, but it doensn't mean that i stopped trying. i still run towards you, amidst tripping and falling flat on my face. that never stopped me from running, even until i can't run anymore.

i forgot how it feels like. how looking through a person's eyes could make you see things this world wanted us to discover, how beautiful life really is. and then, you are able to smile, just by seeing yourself through this person's eyes. i admit that i couldn't be a prince, a superhero or someone perferct.. all i could be is myself. and i always found you beautiful, even in your own errors and faults. i too have misatkes and who am i to judge others as well.

i really never cared what others think, i did everthing out of my own freewill. to love is to be a complete idiot. to spill wine on your shirt, to stutter in when to talking. because it's never about me, but about you. i don't care if the world doesn't believe in anything i say or laughs in what i do, because i'm not doing this for the world, just for you.

valentines

well, today i was a choir boy.

and honestly, i was very nervous at the beginning. i did not practice with them or anything like that. i didn't know any of the songs they would sing.. basically. i was just there and did what i promised to do..

i'm not a very bad singer myself but out of the 12 people singing, i'm probably person number 12. they were really good and know how to sing the songs. i was just there to sing, and to do just do it in the best way that i can. fortunately, i managed to get through the whole mass without making a mess, and made 11 new friends.

it was fun in a sense that the mass seemed to go faster than usual.haha i got used to sitting at the back, and to just sit back and listen. at least from now on, i have something to do during mass.

it's weird to remember my english 11teacher all of a sudden..
he died after that sem.. Dr.Guillermo Pesigan or Sir Gimo.

he was a good teacher and also a very odd one.. but in a good way.
I remember the first day where he said that I have a good name."lemarc"
and that i should live up to it..

and during the english classes, i was usually the one reading parts of articles/
essays/stories in class. he said that in his opinion, i have a command of my audience's
attention, where they listen to what about to say, as if something might happen..
I just remember those things because I think that I should rememeber who Iam
and what Iam capable of doing.

when we were talking about fallacies, I remember one that even he had
a fascination of pronouncing/saying - petitio principii
it's about a logical fallacy where a premise is assumed to be true without warrant.
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well, my mom again asked me if i want to go to law.. its in my blood. she said that i write good enough and makes good arguments. but i don't know.. who knows..

its funny that my dad reacted and said that "gusto mo nanaman magsinungaling ang anak mo.."
haha

This sight greeted me as I arrived home this afternoon. It's been a long time since this ponsettia had some color in its leaves. Only today have I noticed its striking red leaves because its been green ever since. I don't know if the water i'am using has red dye or large amounts of iron(napakanerd na sagot,hehe).. or just plain coincidence. It was a nice sight to see and it was really beautiful to look at. At first glance, you might think that there are red flowers, but all of it are just leaves, some in disguise. The color change really made me notice it more and made the plant stand-out among the others.

This next image was taken long ago. We still have white orchids and some purple ones present. Plants are nice, it's simple as making cup noodles.. just add water.

fra-la-la-la

well, i must say that i had fun today. that's that.

but earlier, it was quite funny that is saw the choir member, who is like a leader or something. i knew that she would ask me, again, if i would like to be one of the choir members. the funny thing was that she did. usually, i would say no and make up excuses for not joining. but on this day, i just ran out of excuses. i did not know what to say. i was caught off guard..

and so, being a gentleman that i am, i greeted her and asked her where she was going.. even though i realized that she was holding a guitar and was headed for mass.(i did it just to start things up). it was a legitimate question because mass usually starts at 1030am and she was already dressed around 930am. so there she was, we were talking a bit. then she asked me that damn question again and quote, "O, gusto mo ba sumama sa choir?" at first, i was thinking.. why ask me again if, chances are, i would say no again? then i just thought why not.. join then. maybe i should be singing during mass.

so, in a weird moment, i said yes, after the Nth time of asking. i dunno why i said yes, but i did. so, iam officially, a choir member. which comes to another thing..
im not such a choir singer myself. but it's for God, so maybe, i could give Him some laughs on the day he went to rest.

***on tuesday, there will be a forum about waste and whatever at F-AVR(maybe) on 9-1030am. i will be like a "reactor". its like a panel of 3 people from PMSA, ACHES and ESS(me). i just hope i won't make a fool of myself. hehe

Turon de crema

it's like your typical turon, but with a much creamy filling. haha
what you need are

5 cups milk (evaporated)
1.5 cups sugar
1 cup flour
4 egg yolks
Small square lumpia wrappers
Cooking oil
Vanilla (or whatever) extract to taste

for the filling

first, you need to pour the milk, sugar, flour and egg yolks in a heated kaserola and cook over low heat.

stir for about 5-10mins or until the mixture thickens. para creamy

add vanilla (or whatever) extract to taste

remove from heat and let cool for a few mins.

its time to add the filling

place a spoonful of the mixture at the middle of the lumpia wrapper.

moisten the edges of wrapper with tubig. roll wrapper and press to seal. not too hard because the filling might make tapon or something.

do this until you don't have the pang filling anymore

lumpia cooking

heat cooking oil in a shallow pan(para di masyado madami oil) over medium heat

fry turon until "golden brown" (yun naman ang laging term)

then set aside and place on some lalagyan with paper towels para masipsip some of the oily stuff

then you can serve it with a scoop of your favorite ice cream para maging "turon de crema ALA MODE"

given the items, it could make 10-15 servings for you and your sweetie. see, it's that easy, and something sweet for this valentines. show your love with your creamy turon. hahaha

feeling QUOTE-y

let's see how i could mess up sentences and phrases..

direction is never required while running in circles.

just because you can't have bread doesn't mean you can't
have a sandwich.

the king rules his kingdom.. however, the queen
rules the king

the effort of the effortless is never applauded.

feeding the homeless won't
give you a seat in heaven.

the glory of a man, is the glory of his country

being comfortable means that
you are wearing your underwear properly

ignorance is inattention

superheroes are made from
man's insecurities

confidence makes the light shine brighter


may alam ka pa ba? hehe

what to do..

hey guys, its me. and you know something, valentines is right around the corner. do you have plans with your special someone or just ready to hang-out with friends? if you are still undicided on what to do on this day, look no further. i have some ideas that might make this day worthwhile than what you may think.

1) play dota
-show your love byg beating someone senseless. its for ya'll anger management clients who don't want blood shed but just want to say, "ARGHHH!"

2)play basketball
-it's another way to "score" on the day

3)read a book
-if you can't be prince charming or the princess on the tower, you can imagine it thorugh a novel. just change the name.

4)be with friends
-you cannot be too hard on yourself to be alone. hang-out and chillax with yer hommies. ya heard..

5)sleep
-what you don't know won't hurt you

6)dance
-it's better than sleeping

7)study
-it's a way to show you love yoyr parents while they're still paying your tutition, your food, your shelter, your clothes(some), your gasoline, your rent(is you go to the dorm).... it never ends

8)watch a movie
-relax, enjoy a movie ->mtrcb

9)crash into a marriage
-it's so romantic, however, you're not in the romance

10)do what your heart pleases
-you won't go wrong with that

well that's about it. you don't need to be with your sweetums, you just need to be yourself and enjoy the day. ayt. over and awt...

it is never wrong to love someone, even though it is not reciprocated. love is giving, and does not ask for anything in return. we give until we cannot give anymore. but when love knocks at your own doorstep, never chase it away, no matter how pathetic or great it is. it is then that we feel our own lives change, in the relationships we make, conjugally, socially or silly it may be. love is always a choice, not a feeling that comes and goes because love is always present. sometimes we are unsure, sometimes sure na sure, but love is a risk worth taking. it is a chance of a lifetime for everyone. and when your love is chased away, don't start throwing stones. don't form any grudges of anger and bitterness. continue to love, and you will be loved. things don't always go our way. so in your future endeavors in life, learn to love. then, start to live.

in this land of broken dreams and false hopes, i grow stonger.for in a wasteland, one finds himself in nothing more than himself starring in a mirror, towards the depths of unchartered regions. and looking at himself, he finds the other, looking back at him. bewildred and indifferent. and then he starts to wonder..

why do i live? why do i keep running?

he faces a problem, seemingly impossible to understand, unsolvable. but he follows his heart and listens at the wispers of the wind. he becomes confident in his own unconfidence. he becomes secure in his insecurities. for he realizes that perfection is not found in himself but through the other. the other who gives him much pain and distress. living in this world is more than just having a life. the world we live in is for having the other in our lives. the way we look at ourselves is the way others see it. and then, there will be change. all the clouds would clear, and we see an endless blue.

i never give up. because i have always believed that a certain moment only comes once in a lifetime. and then, everything should fall into place.

only then will the stars shine bright.

and only then will we be able to say to ourselves that we have loved.