"had you ever found yourself in a very confusing state of certainty and uncertainty?"

nowadays, i have been sure ob being unsure. or simply, a state of confusion.
i wanted things to happen all at once. but i wasn't really sure what i want.
in a sense, i did things because i just wanted to know. i wanted to feel and experience
things just for the sake of clearing the confusion. no matter what the consequence is,
we all just want to know because we want to understand what we want as well.

when you tell yourself.. "i just wanted to know.." it's enough reason to live your life. because, when we lack that curiosity, we're already as good as dead.