whenever I see you walk by, I try to smile

and realize how sunny the day is..

I look away to find something interesting,

maybe a painting or people kissing.

I look away to realize that I'm looking back towards you.

and I smile, knowing that I have spent the past days

singing in the rain.. all the while, waiting for the sun for

you to come out and play.

"had you ever found yourself in a very confusing state of certainty and uncertainty?"

nowadays, i have been sure ob being unsure. or simply, a state of confusion.
i wanted things to happen all at once. but i wasn't really sure what i want.
in a sense, i did things because i just wanted to know. i wanted to feel and experience
things just for the sake of clearing the confusion. no matter what the consequence is,
we all just want to know because we want to understand what we want as well.

when you tell yourself.. "i just wanted to know.." it's enough reason to live your life. because, when we lack that curiosity, we're already as good as dead.